In life there are many challenges you go through. In the beginning you may question why me? But at the end you come to find out those same challenges is what determines your character. Mentally, physically and emotionally. In the beginning of my journey I always asked god why me? I thought I was cursed and god didn’t love me. I learned not to trust anyone and how to push people away. That’s because every time I got comfortable with someone to trust and confide in them they eventually turned their back on me. I guess it wasn’t a big deal to them but to me it meant a lot. I was a little girl searching for love in the wrong places…. If I didn’t love myself how could I expect someone else to love me? Damn that’s deep. Now I am learning to love myself. Juliet Elizabeth Forde. I’m not perfect and I have a long road ahead of me but it’s a journey that can inspire many others. As I think about the challenges I have been through I can only smile. I was once that little girl asking god why me? Now I am the young women who is thanking god for all those challenges. Those same challenges have made my character. It’s ironic how destiny works. I really want my story to help other foster children in their adversities. Let them know they are not alone and if no one has ever told them that they are loved guess what…I LOVE YOU! I know what it feels like to not feel loved therefore I am going to be there whenever I can. To do whatever I can. I want you all to succeed. Failure is no option. I will be honest the odds are against you but as long as you have goals and the drive to succeed you can do whatever you put your mind to. Distractions are more than easy to come by but as long as you have the passion for what it is you want to do nothing and I mean nothing will stop you. Not your foster mother. Not your boyfriend. Not the people who continue to bring you down or even your friends. And to be honest you are sometimes your worst enemy. Remember what doesn’t kill you can only make you stronger! Wow that’s funny I once couldn’t get the courage to push myself to keep going; now I’m pushing others to keep going. Mom wherever you are I hope you know your baby girl is going to make it. Dad I did it! I stop looking for a father in older guys. Your presence is truly missed but I somehow maintained to see the sunshine through all my rainy days. Maybe I will still be able to be daddy’s little girl, his princess, his world. But if not I can deal with that. What can I say I’m destined for greatness!!

 

NAFP is a community outreach partner of The Foster Care Film and Community Engagement Project (FCFCEP), a documentary project depicting the lives of youth in foster care. This blog post is written by film interviewee Juliet Forde, a former foster youth and advocate.

For more information about FCFCEP, visit www.fostercarefilm.com, like the Foster Care Film on Facebook  and follow @FosterCareFilm on Twitter. You can also watch short clips from the project on YouTube and Vimeo or check out a trailer of the first live-action short film, Feeling Wanted, to be released in 2015.